Scariest day ever is officially here. Not sure how to feel sitting in the car on the way to surgery I can’t say it’s a feeling I have ever experienced. Deep down I know it has to happen, has been a long time coming, I am as prepared as I’ll ever be, I have an amazing medical team and support system in place and look forward to starting life after seizures. I just can’t shake this logical fear of walking into the unknown with a bagful (yes not a handful) of questions. I wish I had written more, I wish I had written it all down, I wish I had didn’t have to worry about writing anything. Then I realize I’m actually lucky it was me. I’m extremely emotional and would probably give a limb for anyone I love; definitely would not be ok sitting this out on the sidelines for someone else so I’m glad it was me not them. I’m glad I have been blessed with an amazing life, friends, family, and doctors. I’m ready.
-Vane

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