Today is day 1 of 42… countdown of Chemo and Radiation. This treatment will get us through part 2 of 3 of what needs to be done to hopefully bring this whole tumor/seizure storyline to a happy ending.

Crazy to think (coincidence huh) that officially 4 months ago today, May 29th 2014 I wrote this post:

“Scariest day ever is officially here. Not sure how to feel sitting in the car on the way to surgery I can’t say it’s a feeling I have ever experienced. Deep down I know it has to happen, has been a long time coming, I am as prepared as I’ll ever be, I have an amazing medical team and support system in place and look forward to starting life after seizures. I just can’t shake this logical fear of walking into the unknown with a bagful (yes not a handful) of questions…”

It is partially still correct. It is still scary steps to take or unlike any experience I’ve ever had or wish on anyone. I know it is the right thing to do and am ready. Very happy to say that surgery is WAY is over. While the medical team around for surgery are still around there is a new set added for chemo/radiation and they are just as amazing. My silver lining support system to EVERY cloud, don’t know where I would be without them is still shining. Happy (knock on wood) to say that since surgery and a few of those first speed bumps I haven’t had any seizures either. We somehow fought out of the last unknown. We’re heading into this one with a lot of more questions, more answers, a lot more knowledge and counting days. We’ll make it out of this one too.

Four months ago I wished I had written more, this time, I’m glad I did. Now I’m hoping to DO more after. To take all the questions, the answers, all the knowledge I learned, all these amazing people I’ve found along the way and put it somewhere to use.

I find it only fitting that my posts end the same on such a day…

“I realize I’m actually lucky it was me. I’m extremely emotional and would probably give a limb for anyone I love; definitely would not be ok sitting this out on the sidelines for someone else so I’m glad it was me not them. I’m glad I have been blessed with an amazing life, friends, family, and doctors. I’m ready.”

-Vane

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